i b back

i m back...lol.... haha. how everybody going?
i m fine i m good i m preparing to be.... a super girl
y?
no la just joking. i m stress. i m stress till the max. this is not the life i wan. what i wan is free work money dropping form the sky. keyi jiu haolol. what i m doing now is morning 830 to 6 having 2k per month. tak cukup guna lo... 450 for rental, 150 for phone. 150 for insurance, 100 for calvin. 90 astro. aisk aisk thinking wont bring to anywhere. so i will make myself up. i be selling healthy product o. and  bag, and cake or cookies....it will be cheap and nice. i will earn every thing 5 ringgit sahaja. so if 100 person buy from me, i get only 500....@@ macam tak cukup eh.... baru dapat cover the 150 150 100 90. tinggal 10.... omg... goverment sir could u spare me more br1m... tak cukup la. u asyik naik semua u ingat saya earning 100k permonth meh... br1m macam bagi pegemis saja..
complaint complaint. it wont bring me to anywhere but we human like to talk bad than good. so we should chage our attitude. talk good talk good.

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Time fly fast like plane d~ it is 2013 ad.... new plan new idea new goal~ haha
things does change in a way of thinking. but i will still continue the way i want it to b now. what i wan is a win win situation, dun show that you are so pity and hope that i can leave him as because of the face dunno put where, you should be happy as i found a good guy like him and pls forget his past. as you say past ad past let it go, then y u are thinking bout his past then when i touch on your sister past you say past d dun think bout it...aisk.
nvm... time will let everything go smooth~
god bless~

life

this, how many 10 years you had. make it clear. be happy and get what you wan. dun regret. i wont regret on everything i wan to do and the one i had choose. pls i beg u, u dun beg me pls, just take it despite the happiness of you child.

everythng happen for a reason

i believe everything happen for a reason.

what i had done i should bare the consequence.

this time it will b a big wan as what i want i will get it and i will.

most of the time ppl just see the surface of the person and if u dunnoe him by looking the past of him and look of him u will say, what the fuck u wan to b with this idiot?

ya, i m rude.

yes he is this kind of look that been given to you guy. his past n look. pls do get along with him and noe him like i do to make sure u are not judging it by it cover. i will proof it that what u guys do is wrong, and i will b the last to win. but what i wish for is a win win situation not a one win one lose.

sometime i wish i just could run away and let u both lose the war. i m not going to go that way unless u force me to the wall and make me do it.

what u guys do is listen those ppl who is black hearten talk bad bout him. why? how bad is him?? where he is a super caring n soft guy i ever meet? how not loving is him? where he take care of the family until work till he get so tired at night? how not responsible of him? where he take care of the family inside out and protective of the family. how bad will he b? i wonder?

did you noe y he was divorce? because he ad give up for his wife who is not loyalty, not filial piety, not care for the family and children.

y i say so?
A housewife who give birth for 3 beautiful child, this eldest get abuse when she was small, the second get sick due to lack of taking care her and make her a water pail to play for few hour and almost die cause of her lack alert and till the next day only she go tell her in-laws, make the youngest been spoil and bad temper? this is a good mum ya? not doing any house chores let the mother in law do everything and having TNMJP,TNYMGJB,TN,and make the children learn those word. when the mother in law got stroke due to her who cause this, she went for work and leave the mother in law in house alone for 3 years. and said the mother in law, this is your time, this time you are died, noe how to eat duno how to do. this time you are finish. tell me how good this women is?tell me
when divorce, the mental stress that she done almost get the whole family go n suicide especially him, did u guys noe that, u don no.
during court time, did you noe what the wife tell the judge, the judge ask the wife, why u dun wan to take the children? you have the priority to have them y u choose not to?
do you wan to noe the answer of the wife? she say want it for what, disturb my way and blocking it. (oi le zuo mak yet? tou suo lam giok) in cantonese if u get what i means. this is a good woman?
  
i m clear with everything, as u noe everything i do is sometime is so stubborn till i hurt u, this guy make it and 4 year we been together. i was as happy as an angel. who noe that? all of my friend had eye, and they can proof it.

i noe you guys, status is more important than me, i wish to sacrifice my selves and can i say a word to you?

u had lose a son lose a daughter because of your stubbornness on the status and face, is it so important of the face and status than the happiness of your children? tell me?
i am not doing anything unmoral,  moral is respect is ppl who gave you, not yourselves who decide it. do you not face is ppl who gave, status is thrown by ur selves.

did you noe the most been hurt, is not u both, is me and you sons. u thought everything u do is the best for us, but did you ask did u take agreement from us on what we want what we wish for? you dint. you dint......

THANK YOU. AND EXPLAINATION.

IF I DUN HAVE HIM, I HAD MARRY AND MY MARRIED WILL B A NOT HAPPY ENDING MARRIED.

IF I DUN HAVE HIM, I M AD A MUM OF A 3 OR MAYB 4 YEARS OLD SON OR GAL.

IF I DUN HAVE HIM, I AD A VERY CHEAP SLUT THAT HAVING ons  EVERY WEEK WITH SOMEONE I DUN NO.

IF I DUN HAVE HIM, MY LIFE IS SO MISERABLE.

IF I DUN HAVE HIM, I WONT NOE WHAT IS SAFE IN THE ARM OF YOUR LOVE ONE.

IF I DUN HAVE HIM, I BEEN DRAG AND ABUSE BY SOMEONE IN THE PAST.

IF I DUN HAVE HIM, I WONT SO HAPPY LIKE FOR NOW AND THE PAST 4 YEARS

IF I DUN HAVE HIM, I HAD BEEN THROW OUT OF SCHOOL DUE TO DRUG ABUSE AND ABSENT TO SCHOOL DUE TO PUB EVERY NIGHT.

IF I DUN HAVE HIM, I DINT NOE THAT LOVING SOMEONE IS SO WONDERFUL.

IF I DUN HAVE HIM, I DINT NOE THAT THE SOCIETY HERE IS SOOOOO STEREOTYPE ON WHAT HIS PAST WAS.

IF I DUN HAVE HIM, I WONT NOE THAT AGE RANGE IS NOT A PROBLEM IN A RELATIONSHIP.

IF I DUN HAVE HIM, I DINT NOE THAT BOTH OF MY BROTHER SOOO LOVE ME, AND CARE FOR ME.

IF I DUN HAVE HIM, I DINT NOE THAT MY FAMILY IS SO CONSERVATIVE ON CHOOSING THEIR IDEAL SON IN LAW

IF I DUN HAVE HIM, I DINT NOE THAT MY TEMPER IS SO BAD THAT I ONLY CAN HAD IT ON HIM

IF I DUN HAVE HIM, EVERY BIRTHDAY I WILL JUST HAD CELEBRATE WITH FRIEND AND FAMILY

IF I DUN HAVE HIM, I WONT B HAVING WHAT I HAVE TODAY.

IF I DUN HAVE HIM, I HAD BEEN DIED FOR AT LEAST 4 YEARS AGO.

I AM SORRY TO THOSE WHO SAID HE IS NOT A GOOD GUYS AS HE IS A DIVORCEE. PLS PLSSSSSS!!!!! DUN SAY HE BAD BUT USE YOUR STEREOTYPE EYE AND SEE CAREFULLY ON HOW HE TREAT ME ONLY U TELL ME, IS HE WORTH IT TO BE STEREOTYPE OR NOT!

  YES, HE IS A DIVORCEE FOR 5 YEAR PLUS. AND WE HAD BEEN TOGETHER FOR 4 YEARS. IN THIS 4 YEAR OUR LOVE JUST GROW NO DECLINE. Y? NOT BECAUSE WANT TO SHOW YOU GUYS THAT WE CAN MAKE TO THIS WAY JUST TO LET U GUUYS TO DROP YOUR GLASSES, BUT IN THE PERIOD THAT WE BEEN TOGETHER, NO HURT JUST JOY AND LOVE. HURT IS FROM YOU ALLS STEOREOTYPE EYES THAT SAYING A DIVORCEE IS A NO NO GOOD GUYS. Y NOT GOOD TELL ME? A GUY THAT WILL LET HAVE TO BE THAT NATURAL NO COVER U, A PERSON WHO CARE FOR YOU SO MUCH AND WORRY LIKE HELL WHEN SOMETHING HAPPEN TO YOU EVEN IT IS A SMALL THING LIKE PERIOD PAIN? THAT IS A NOT GOOD GUY?

HE TEACH ME TO BE SELF LOVE, BUT WHAT I DO IS JUST HURTING MYSELF THAN LOVE MY SELVES BEFORE THIS, YOU WANNA NOE Y? BECAUSE I DUN NO WHAT IS LOVE I THOUGHT GIVING SEX TO THE GUYS THAT WILL MEANS LOVE. I AM NOT A VIRGIN START 17 PLUS, Y? I M A CURIOUS GAL THAT RUN HERE AND THERE AND A LOVE SEEKER!Y? FROM I WAS A LITTLE GAL I BEEN ALONE AND THE LOVE FROM NOT YOUR PARENTS IS REALLY A K-YOS, LACK OF LOVE FOR A CHILDREN AND EVERY BLAME NOT MAKE BY ME IS COUNT ON ME?  THAT MAKE MY LIFE SO MISERABLE. I M NOT HERE TO BLAME OTHER BUT WHAT MY LIFE IS NOW IS BECAUSE OF MY PAST AND I STILL CANT LET IT GO AS I AM SOOOO DEEEPLY HURT  BY UR ACTION. NOT MY PARENT BUT MY CARETAKER, EXCEPT MY BIG AUNTY~ SHE IS STRICT BUT U LOVE ME FROM INSIDE, AUNTY, AND I NOE THAT.

Y MUST A SINGLE ONLY CAN BE A GOOD GUYS BUT A DIVORCEE CANT? GIVE ME THE ANSWER PLS? I DUN UNDERSTAND THIS, I M SORRY. MY LOVE LIFE IS SIMPLE, FOR THE ONE WHO REALLY BEEN GOOD TO ME, HE WILL BE THE ONE WHO WILL BE WITH ME FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE.

WHAT YOU TELL ME, I WONT CHANGE IT, AS HE IS BETTER THAN YOUR HUSBAND AND I CAN GUARANTY THAT. DUN THINK THAT HE WILL CHEAP ME PLS.

IF WHAT U WAN IS WHETHER HE HAD PROPERTY OR NOT, YES, HE HAD, NOT MUCH, ABOUT A MILLION ONLY. AND IT IS IN MY HAND, Y SHOULD U WORRY BOUT THAT?

WHAT I CARE ABOUT IS JUST HOW HE TREAT ME, NOT PROPERTY. MONEY CAN BE EARN, BUT THE CHOICE YOU HAD FOR YOUR OTHER HALF. PLS BE CLEAR AND MAKE SURE HE IS THE ONE THAT CAN HAD FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE, IF YOU ARE NOT HAPPY WITH HIM AND ARGUE FOR SOMETHING SMALL, HALO, PLS RETHINK AND ASK YOURSELVES, IS HIM THAT ONE?

I AM SURE THAT HE IS THE ONE FOR ME.
I HAD SEEN HIS FAMILY, HIS RELATIVE, HIS FRIEND, AND EVERY PERSON THAT HE NOE, IF HE TREAT ME UNWELL THEIR SURE WILL GIVE ME SIGNAL FOR LEAVING HIM, BUT UNTIL NOW NO ONE HAD DONE THAT.

Y HE DIVORCE? DIVORCE IS NOT BECAUSE OF BOTH HAD DONE A BIG WRONG THAT CANT BE TAKE BACK, BUT IS BOTH ALREADY CANT WALK DOWN TOGETHER FOR THE HALF OF THE ROAD.

HE WANNA CHEAT MY MONEY AND MY PET?

OK, MY PET IS SOOOO CHEAP THAT I HAD 6 PERSON TRY IT~!

OK WANNA CHEAT MY MONEY, WHAT I HAD IS ONLY -150,000.00 IN THE BANK. NOT MUCH. 

WHO NOE? MY MUM DINT TELL AND MAKING HER SELVES LIKE SHE THE MOST POOR THING IN THE WORLD AND LET YOU GUY THINK  THAT CHILDREN ARE THE ONE MAKING HER THAT WAY, BUT DID YOU NOE THAT SHE N HER GREAT HUSBAND WHO HAD THE LOAN AND NOT BECAUSE OF US?  THERE WAS A TIME SHE AND HER HUSBAND GO REFINANCE AND THAT TIME THEIR CAN CLEAR ALL THE DEBT, AND STILL HAVING SOME ABOUT 20K LEFT, AS I COUNT CLEAR ALL FOR THAT, DO YOU NOE WHAT THEY TELL ME? THEY SAY DUN USE TO PAY IT ALL KEEP IT. AND WHAT HAPPEN IS 6 MONTH ALL THE MONEY FROM LOANS FINISH. I AM SO ANGRY AND I CONFRONT THEM, Y? THERE A CHANCE TO CLEAR ALL YOU GUYS DUN DO IT AND KEEP IT TO CLEAR SLOWLY? I AM SO CURIOUS.PLS GUIDE ME

I AM  CHILDISH. PLS MY THINKING IS CHILDISH IS  BETTER THAT YOU GUYS WHO IS SOOOO CAPABLE IN ACTING. YOU CAN CRY IN A SUDDEN AND LAUGH ON THE OTHER SIDE. I AM NOT THAT KIND OF PERSON THAT HAVING 2 FACE. HOW CHILDISH I AM? CHOOSING A GUY THAT IS DIVORCEE IS A CHILDISH ACTION? BELIEVING IN HIM WONT CHEAT ME I S A CHILDISH ACTION>?

WHAT IS CHILDISH ACTUALLY, THAT I CAN LIVE MY SELVES, I CAN TAKE CARE OF MY BROTHER, I HAD TO CLEAR ALL THE DEBT EVERY MONTH AND LEFT NO MORE FOR MY 1 MONTH USAGE, I HAVING TO DRIVE HERE AND THERE ALL BY MY SELVES. I NEED TO BE INDEPENDENT,I CAN TAKE CARE MY SELVES,I NEED TO THINK ALL OVER ON THE ACTION I WAN TO DO.I AM CLEAR WITH MY MIND ON WHAT I WAN, WHEN MY PARENT STILL AROUND I AM AD LIKE THIS.THAT IS CHILDISH?
NOE WHAT IS RIGHT AND WHAT I WRONG IS CHILDISH? OK, HAVING A SOOO GODD GUYS THAT TREAT ME SOOO GOOD BUT IS A DIVORCEE IS A CHILDISH ACTION? I DUNNOE HOW TO EXPLAIN THAT..


CAN I HAVE SOME COMMENT WHAT SHOULD I DO~? I AM SO WAVE NOW~ I WAN A WIN WIN SITUATION~ IS IT SO HARD TO HAD IT?

Grad.

Finally I' M GRADUATED.... it feels like after exam i clear with the thing i wanna to do but it seems all need to be postpone as parent going out oversea to work. nvm... plan can change whenever thing do not turn well ya. as for me i m flexible enough i think as i was planning to become a teacher for full time, due to i need to take care of my bro i will had to make a change on having tuition instead of teaching in school.
well things still going good. ^^
what happen to me on my admitted to hospital?
haha, if i tell u u will feel funny bout me as i was going to my family doctor to had my minor minor surgery on the ingrown nail at my big toe. it does pain n look scary to me. but after everything had been done and the nurse had do the dressing well then the time i sit and doctor was about to write the medicine for me, i tell the doctor, i feel dizzy@@
Dr. ask me to lay down n the nurse gave me a cup of duno wat orange flavor drinks. then i feel better. after that i went out but Dr. insist i stay in the clinic for 10 minute and ask my parent to fetch me.
this is what happen when my parent came in i feel more n more dizzy till a stage that i start feel like vomiting and my eyesight gone. serious till i shock my Dr. then they start let me lay down and start pok me.... more pain....aisk...

Ta da~~~ finally have the time to type here~ wahahahaha
this year start it seems i am so busy to do so many thing, what i do is only~ sleep~~~wahahaha~
it had been 4 years since we together. it time to move on~ i will go confront my parent on accepting my choice on you and forever is u my choice. How he treat me i am the one who only noe. i do not need to show off at everyone how he treat me, how good is him, wan ppl come over him me. aiyo.CANNOT. he is mine and forever. sorry not available for you all...blek. ya, he is not good looking and has a big tummy, but he treat me better than who ever beside me.
i want to tell my parent but how i going to start the conversation leh.....>< bother me alot.
i should tell them how good he treat me? how he care for me? how he is when he is with me, and how is his personality is? haiz...
i wanna registered married next year d. without parent acknowledge is a no good way. let them noe they say no, i will still insist to go for him as i am the one who noe how good is him when we are together and how happy am i when we are together, ya sure there is some minor argument during this period but what it do is tie use more tide only.

2013520

it been sooooooo long i dint updated my post and for now i will type a day la...kakakaka.
it been 4 years since we are together. and it time to move forward a step.
so the 1st step i had to take is, tell  my parent, but how, i beeen thinking since i had decide to registered with him. haha.

i think i will just confront them and let them noe how he treat me and what he had done to me. i think i can type here and let them read~.till then, bsy busy~

TT

Do u know that when u are not around i will start to feel so insecure when i in hostel?
Sometimes will do something that is out of my mind just to get away the insecure feeling. i tell u i miss u so much n miss till wan cry liao then u will scold me ben dan and noe i will b crying as u are not in my place at the moment.
i know that u are outstation and i wish that u can give me a surprise visit as i like surprise. it been a long time u dint give me a surprise,dear.
i know i make u worry as i go clubbing alone and i noe u dun like me to mix with my friend that only will noe how to use me n trow me in the water when got thing happen. i noe most of my friend will get they eye pop out when thy noe bout us at 1st. i can tell to all my friend that u ar the one for me and I LOVE U so much till i cant control it in time~ i had been with u for 3 year d. the feeling still like just noe u for one month. dint see u in a week like dint see u in few year~ every time when u come my place i will be so happy that the smile that i had in my face is from my heart.
that day that u hug me so tight that i feel that u are so precious me but u dun tell as u ar those guy that like to keep all the thing in ur heart. the hug was sooooooooo nice n loving till i so touch and almost cry again as i think i make from water~ haha~>< but i love the hug so much~ in this valentine day remember to get me 3 stalks of roses.
Thanks so much dear for making me grow n become a better person~
Hope we can get trough all the thing and can b together in a open way and the 888888888 po and 88888888gong cant say anything bout us anymore~ see one kill one~><

Lovely~

having so many ppl to wish me happy birthday and have 2 cake in the same day is the most happy n glad day that i had in my birthday~

thank q so much for giving me a surprise,u guy surprise me by coming from kampar to my house~ haha~ love u all.
thanks q for bring me to my bf house to had a celebration at his place which i havent done it before it will be a great xperience n memory that i will wanted to hav for this 2 year plus.

thanks q cybrcare for have the interview on my birthday,it make my birthday more memorable as we had a good interview n fun with our junior. it is the most special thing that i ever had.~ love u all so much~

闷

没你陪我我就快闷呆了啦~臭人！
你啊~你啊~
你知不知道人家没人陪的叻~
还不理下我，我就跑掉得咯~
臭人！！！！
才发现原来我只有你可以说话~别人我就好像会有个kek在哪~为什么会这样的呢？
我就不能像你一样和朋友谈天说大炮吗？
除了在学校有的说话，在家都好少有的聊哦~朋友都好像出了学校便不认识一样~
以前的朋友有出去才是朋友没出的就变淡了~
有的只是想你听他的故事，你就只能一直听没的说~到你说时你就能只有一句，他又继续说
还有个能说的又跑到那么远去做工~想说话都难~对啦~就是你！想死我了啦~
我还有很多东西要做的啊~为什么我在浪费我的时间在发呆呢？我应该在忙我的功课而不是在这打字写我的心声~
我知你忙~但女人是听觉动物~你就说“宝贝，今天我不能来哦~老公下次不会给你啦~” 那也就行啦~我就不会吵你啊~
我知道你累~你也可以“我好累哦~明天/我做完工程就来~” 这也行
只要你随时给通电话我说你在忙，或一封信息‘宝贝老婆，想你哦~’ 那有多难啊？
臭人~
为什么男生不了解女生？
为什么女生不了解男生？
完了~

intern intern

it was a very good and nice experience i had during this intern. i love this intern so much as it help me so much on knowing myself and the behavior on my limiting belief. haha.. but when time go on i feel that stress coming up as our pm are getting pushing ad..... PM pls Do be Calm As we Really Do our thing in the best we can...i love u are so much as we go for no expectation on something. the result that come out will be so perfect and nice. it is real because when u expected the thing to be like this it wont go for that way as we had expect something.  i'll post up all the picture as we were all so good in everything that we work play work play work play.. wahahaha... nice combination of team we had.

答应

房祖名的答应

好好听哦~ 讲着一段恋情即将开始~

喜欢看着你说话的样子

觉得你像个孩子

 ~~~~~~~~~~~

但有些话很难说出口

所以写了这首歌只为你

雨天答应晴天 所以天空放晴

电磁答应时间 不让手表暂停

月亮答应星星 永远不分离

一段恋情即将要开花是就会有这种感觉的吗？

嗯~是会有的

是在男生还是女生的思想里发生呢？

两方面都会有

这种感觉是最甜蜜的吗？

对

如何甜蜜呢？

当你即将要开始恋爱时，你就会发现你对他的所有都会在意，和变得自私时~

 当你觉得他变得像个小孩子，只要一通电话是他打来的你就会很开心~

这时才发现原来我爱上了你~需要主动的~不管是男的或女的都可以主动的开动~

觉得很难说出口时~就用这首歌来表达你对他的感觉

人与人之间能相识已经是很难了~能够成为好的朋友更难~有了暧昧~那就该行动~别等到那时机过了才出动~

We will meet around few hundred people a day just a stranger, to become a friend that is in the same line with us is a very hard thing although it seems to be easy~it is not easy to meet the people that is in the same line with us. As it had come dun waste or hesitate to go for it and say it out that u have a feeling to her or him as it is also a opportunity to know whether he or she had the same feeling on u. If yes, HURRAY u sucess! if no, Hurray u can find another that better than him or her. 

That is lot of way we interpret our thinking as we think negative,we will go negative vice versa.

Every information that we get is reflecting our current behavior,not the past not the future, is NOW. ( Sharmini,2010) 

We can live without other as we need to love ourselves before we can love other. if we do not love ourselves  how we can aspect other to love you?

Do you know that we will become fat is because we are lack of protection and self safe in our unconscious mind? what i learn from the book by Loius Hay, title I Can Heal My Life.

Give with no expectation we will get a very good reward back.

两个月的假期~

cut hair,
fyp
eat
sleep till afternoon
sleep late at night
play fb sdo blog msn
free everyday
cook
tidy
go here n there
call hubby every night
wait for result
still got 2 day need to go back to original school time lu
haha...><
i wan get AAAAA
haha

心情

我已从昨晚不开心到今晚啦
还不够吗？
不够，你知道吗？
你的一举一动一言一语对我来说都是很敏感的，
我会因为这而生气，伤心。你定又觉得我在耍脾气
其实你知道吗？你说的每句话对我来说都很重要，因为我会需要你的安慰和爱护还有关心。
我要的不是你的每句在说别人的不好因为他弄生气我而是你的一句：‘没关系啦，他是这样的，别气啦疼回” 这样就好。 为什么每次和你说时你都会用哪种很肯定的话说他是这样的啦、都和你说的啦、他就是这样蛮不讲理得咯！ 你这话什么意思哦！你知道吗？那时我和你说时你也用这种气话来敷衍我~我是真的被气得哭了好久~因为我被两个我爱的人气到啊！一个反口，一个就在那说气话！这是我最讨厌的东西！ 我讨厌你敷衍我！我讨厌你带刺的话！我讨厌你一副很懂很了解的语气！

写在这有屁用~和他说啊~说了又有屁用~他肯改才行啊~

再下去我就会什么都不说便会你刚认识我的嗯哦啊嗯哦啊的我~除了这三个字~我什么都不想说了~因为你也帮不到我~说了等于没说~

记得

谁还记得是谁先说永远的爱我

以前的一句话是我们以后的伤口

过了太久 没人记得当初那些温柔

我和你手牵手说要一起走到最后

这首歌好好听哦~阿妹~我爱你
记得
我们的记忆是会把我们不喜欢的不想想的洗掉吗？
其实不会他只把它收起来不想让我们在想
所谓的忘记其实自是我们的不留意并非忘记
如果有天我和你的爱情开始变化的时候
你是否还会记得我和你手牵手一起走到最后
现在的你我还是记得的~你每句你每个动作但久了我还会记得吗？
我记得我和你走了两年
但时间说真话时我害怕失去你
天黑了我就会失去你
那时你会记得何时爱情开始变化的时候
天空也会有不一样的彩虹
谁还会记得当初那些温柔

我的他

哈哈~来说说我的他吧~
谢谢你为了我的付出~我会好好的珍惜你的~我是个粗神经的女人啊~想说什么就说，当然只对你会才会这样因为你给到我别人给不到的~
我和六七个男人交往过~每一个可以比得上你的好，当然爱情是不能做比较。可是我还是相比比麽~因为也有可能是我的关系才会把以前的恋情都搞扎了~我以前什么都不会说出口，而且还有点怕男人，只有你我不怕还很自然的在你面前表现我的真面目。我也不懂为什么你能让我这么的自然和轻松快乐~和你一起我觉得很自在而且我和你已经两年半了哦~虽然中间又分开过三个月因为我有了一个新欢~但你还是在后面慢慢的监视我~不让我受伤~在那三个月我如一只狗都不如~那男的是个很大男人的人而且很暴力但他从没伤我~他会做出一些你完全只能在电视上看的到的东西~和他分手后~你不但没骂我没讨厌我还帮我~之后复合你也不会生气我~还抱了我好久~那晚是我完全崩溃的晚上~在你怀里哭了好久好久~因为我生气我自己伤了你也伤了自己~对不起~
我生病你是一话不说就来找我带我去看医生，我经痛你也会这么做~睡觉是会抱着我知道我睡了你依然抱着，我问你为什么，你既然说舒服咯，抱你很舒服~  ==///
你也从没骂我但终是会说我，我有时会生气是因为你总是不说出你的问题和烦恼给我听~和你说时你总会说不要你为我担心和烦恼~在一起是要快乐和自在，开心就好~你好久没给我惊喜了啦~每年的情人节一年加一朵哦~这就知道我们一起有几久了哈哈~我会上进你也要比我更上进哦~不然就不要你~因为你就会变得一个什么都不会的叔叔~我们的年龄距离宽，你大我好多，很多人都反对，尤其是我家人因为没可能一个离婚的能和我一起，我眼睛生在哪哦? 但我就是要和他一起因为我找不到第二个像他那性格的人了。

我爱你

宁

恋人未满

还记得以前市怎认识你的~不知你还记得吗？
我们是透过我弟的电话里的号码，他朋友把电话给你们这班人的~
然后你第一封是‘我们可以做个朋友吗？’我问你如何拿到我的电话 你说天跌了张纸下来
之后我们每晚都会传信息。
不知何时开始就习惯了和你传信息的日子，每晚都会由一句‘在做什么’开始到睡觉，有时还会传到一半睡着了突然吓醒再回传给你~ 有天突然和你说‘我喜欢你请和我交往吧’ 你既然傻了眼会我‘我一下不懂该和你说什么好’就这样结束了但这未结束我们每晚的信息，我们还是照常的信息但不一样的是你对我细心了~就这样我们见面的次数十根手指都数得完~但那感觉是比任何一个恋人更投入和爱护~
直到有一天你不在和我信息了~我找你但你都没回我~我真的快担心死了~但当时我真的太笨了~不会去问你的朋友，之后才知道你和牛做工了。查回之前你传给我的信息，既然发现你有次传来的不是什么祝福语而是你的表白，我既然笨到没看就按掉了~笨蛋的我~ 我还记得你写的是‘原来日久真的会生情，我真的喜欢上你了，好想把你收起来不被别人拿走。’ 但是我看到时已经有了牛就是你的好朋友。
但那是我真的不会谈恋爱因为我和你都是信息多很少谈电话，还记得有次你喝醉了和我说了一堆有的没得好好笑哦~但那天我真的好开心因为你和我谈了很久~你最后一句说‘你也很会说话啊~不会静啊’ 我说‘和你而已’
之后我有了牛，你和我说他是个很好的男人；但你知到吗，当我看到你时我真的有点吓到因为原来你在他那做工，但为何不和我说 ，我知道他是好男人但这句话然我心好疼好疼，因为是你，当时我好想和你说你知道我找了你好久好久嘛？为什么不回我？为什么不睬我？为什么？当时我怕男人所以什么都没说~就只和你笑笑带过。好辛苦啊~
直到去年和你喝茶，发现你胖了哦~好好哦~我也换了好几个男朋友~和他也没了因为他说我一脚踏两船~不知那个废柴乱说话，而当时的我并不会表达所以就一刀两断。
然后没多久就听到我朋友说你有了女朋友，还是我朋友来的，我听了心还是好酸好酸的，好想大哭一场，但我长大了没什么好哭的就算啦。

祝福你（国强）可以和你心爱的白头到老，子孙满堂。（好老派哦—）结婚不清我就掐死你！

暗恋你的宁

DUn noe

i so bored ah... i done a thing that seen a long time i dint do. that is cut my hair short till i cant believe it and it will like when my primary standard one hair so short but that time shorter. hehe... the second thing i do is i go shopping till i buy up to 100++ thing in Elianto...walao i cnt believe it.... haha... but nvm is my thing that i lik and after all the hard working i should buy something to pamper my self.  oh well i doing the same thing this few week. wake late than the sun shine in the middle sleep when the moon half sleep. wake up breaksfat then sit in front of the pc play game play fb watch stupid show... hahahaha funny show laugh die me. but i dint go out except with my mum
but i wish to go out with him lo... miss die u~ haha..

finish... wat a day. giv u see my photo...

Bla~~~i frustated!!!!!! totally!!!!!!!!!

Haha... quiet a long time dint update blog d... busying with my intern work so much... so many thing need to do especially fund raising is on the way.. make me more n more work... other... haiz... need to settle quiet a lot of thing by just doing by myself ! quiet frustrated... nvm~ i still can do the best i can so that we still get the  SAME GRADE although i n jun do the most! 
 it will be nice if u all can volunteer come n search or ask for work. and u all know what u need to do already but wat are u all doing. it suppose had lot lot lot lot of work starting this week. lot of thing that i need to do u can come n ask.. not just only doing the flower n box and ribbon. those is second important thing lo.....haiz......
i still enjoy the work and sometime i still like to mumble here cause i really need support also... the most important thing now is sponsorship!!!!!!! haiz...... wat thing u need to do in the office wo!