Monday, May 31, 2010

My life Line

Haha...hi hi, this will be the 1st time i write blogs. I'm Elaine Phua from Langkap. Langkap is a small village from the state of Perak. I born in Hospital Besar Seremban. From 0 to 3 i been take care by my grand n aunt. My parent went oversea where call Papua New Guinea, a place where most the resident is black skin ppl n the place is quite dangerous.
          When i was 3 i went there to stay with my parent where i go study for kindergarten also. My mum tell me that the 1st time i talk i was actually talking hokkien with the English ppl...ha-ha so funny... but i dun have much of the memories.I just remember that there was a water bed in our house a lot of dogs n puppies n delicious coconut, mum cook Asian dishes for me lik nasi lemak roti canai banana cake other i cant get back the memories. I think i went to Hong Kong as well where i got visit ocean park n Macau. In the ocean park i get a photo of me made in to a key chain as a souvenir n i was playing banana boat at 3 years old i think.I was totally shock at that time which still a phobia to me till now but i had overcome it.Haha...
After that i was send back from there to study my kindergarten at Seremban then before this i was having my kindergarten in PNG but then dun noe y papamama send me back to M'sia. Everyday my grandpa will send me to my kindergarten by motor. so with no parent in side is like this de lo...In the kindergarten i always get bully by a boy...but i dint tell my grandparent but after that teacher found out n the ms just canned the boy. He used to pinch me beat me n i always get the bruise.
             It was mother's day on the time in kindergarten n ms made a carnation paper flower for each of us as a give to mum, but for me my mum was still outside of the country how am i going to send the flower to her as i was still a small n unacknowledged child. So i just put the flower at the top of the stair. I think i say to my grandpa i wan to give it to mama when mama come back...still can feel the heartbreak of me when writing this... it feel so helpless when mama papa not around. The last thing i remember the carnation is my grandpa ask me to throw it but i was refusing but dunno how the carnation seems gone. So the flower was throw to the bins before i get it for my mama
         After that, i remember that once, i gave ma a a give that dunno where i pick it up n just wrap with a calendar paper n just give her. i feel so happy at that time cause i gave something to my mama. another thing is that i was so naughty that i play in around the motorcycle and when i want to come down i fall n i hurt my leg... it leave a 1 to 2 inch of scar till now..
        After that mama n papa came back n stay in M'sia to work. My mum told me that the primary school teacher always complaint about the cleanliness n tidiness of my school uniform. After this not much memory can i caught back ad...i think it just went trough normally.
         We move to Klang i study for 6 year there for my primary then to was a new place for me in Langkap. what a small town. when me and my family 1st came to Langkap, the food was completely sooooooooo cheap than in Klang until we are so shock when we heard the price.
         My new life from here as new place new situation new air,like the twilight d actress then, i start my secondary in a school call Dato'Sagor a school where contain a lot of different people and i still dun noe how to deal with them. for the 1st day we just simply been separate to a classroom before we can start school. as i get in to a class where i mix with a after pre secondary d student which is mine senior. they seems good n nice to me as the girl chat with me quiet a long time asking me y i change class to here y no stay at kl...... then after all been separate in class they were few of us cant been call up the name as we are come from different place d school d student change to here. Then the principle say that i dun have the verify paper that saying that i have the authority to sate in this school i was shock n started to cry. after that i been give to a class where there are mostly naughty student go and pre-secondary school student stay.
        Then i saw the girl again as she told me that i sit here dun sit there. As i still so naif,i just follow the order of the teacher then the girl say change then the teacher also no say anything. then i just change to the place she say.then after one week i change to the second class is from 1A1 to 1A2 a class where i meet another bunch of student that is naughty, there i still be a good girl.
         Then after 3 day i change to a class 1A8 the class where i find all my friend from then till now. from the girl that take me to the class was now my best ever friend Mei Jean. haha...we two was still funny with this as how we noe each other as we had make a line tight up when u take me to my class. from there start with mixing with malay as i dun noe how to mix. then come two chinese gal asking wat ur name? that is Chia Yee and Pei Ying. if i no mistaken. form then we play n play,study. and chaos one day then friend back again..haha... until we change class it become a distant and it stop.
        It still there,become lesser. then mix and mix friend become more but no long distant friendship.until form 3 end i noe a guy from the phone. his name is O.D. he is a cute guy as dun noe y that goes my puppy love with him. then after that he change saying wan to break as he need to go sabah n work. i was lik so hurt so hurt until a half day i finally go ok.then i just accept lo. then i change a few phone naif(==_) after that i meet with nam yinn that we will go long kai everyday.haha dunnoe for wat...haha... then nonstop talk with her.
       Then meet with other  in form 4 and 5. play play fun fun laugh laugh till dunnoe the time n day. wahahaha, nice form 4 and 5. haha. after that come a guy call nick. dunnoe for wat attract me and my best friend ting. now we are just a stranger that noe but no talking. he is they one who ruin my life or can say i make him come in and ruin my life. wat a stupid i am. it make an exprience for me that time is man only wan is sex no other.
He will make me to go his house to do something for him as once i lik to go to his house as the smell attract me and the hug he give me. i still can remember as that time i was helping him to press his pimple out then play till lik he is up me using his chin to tickle me in my face then he stop and look at me then he become closer and closer to kiss me. i was lik turn here and there as i dun wan to let him to kiss me. he just force me to stay still by making me no space to turn(==_) then i just been kiss n kiss n kiss... dunnoe for wat..>< so terrible. then i came n came again for more n more.   i think i stop here. i need to have some of the flash back so that i can continue from small to i meet him.
Just awake from yesterday till now....haha...wat a good night to sleep. but i cry before i go in to my dream. u had made me miss u so much in my life. but it just one week away from our gathering but it like one month for me ad. but u seem like u dun have the feel on it but u can feel my missing. i need to be understanding so that i can feel u too... maybe.. y is it hard when someone u love go for outstation for work n other just for a few day, start feeling the miss even though just for few hour just he left.i miss u dear do u get me??

bro bro

today was my half moody day i think cause i wake up so early in the morning then had breakfast. then i feel great. it was a good family day.Haha cause we go for my little bro final competition of badminton. when it was his turn to play i feel so proud n nervous as he playing... my papa n mama n my bro laugh at me cause it like i'm playing not my little bro who play...haha cute me... then i took a picture of him n his double match player. the most right is my little bro n the orange color is they final competitor. it was so amazing that my bro skill n technique was so nice n strong. feel so happy to him n proud too. haha... after that we when to jusco... the most crowded place haha.. cause almost new year.... but i dint buy any thing at sad... i wan to wait my hubby to come back n go shop with him....haha...then i can wear the thing that he buy haha.... miss him sooooo much..... almost like 2 month dint see him but it just 3 week time only...cause every week he will come n accompany me on my free time so it make me so uneasy on everything ...after all the grocery thing that had brought we when back lu.. wat a tired day... haha nice. enjoy the day guys


wat a bad luck today....need to duty but lucky nothing to do...but it was so tired n sleepy lucky got ppl to talk with...haha.... the bad luck happen when i cant start my car...... =,= battery kong ad.....mean no more battery..haha. then i just call my papa then my papa say then how?? i think la...wait... then i just make my thing by calling my service center to ask them to send a person to fix it...then nvm.... it was a little piny rain when i come out... then after the technician come n wanted to change the battery the rain become so big until all of us need to wait in the car...then later the technician person say he need to go back 1st then later he come again. ok then.. after that nvm... i just let tem to tumpang me back so i not need to walk back with my friends... then after reach home i bath cook haha....nice dinner then my mum told me that my papa scold my mama. wat la... haiz.... family problem... private sorry..haha then after the rain stop i just call him to fix my car. it take only 15 minute to fix it n it cost rm200.... haiz...i already this lagi poor..... car pls love me as i love u.....bye..

Monday, May 24, 2010

wat a day

1st day at my IA( internship) haha... wake at 7 do some washing bathing n brushing n make up- ing already 9:15 am...haha.. i'm so slow motion. i go with my bf last Saturday to Seberang Prai at Bukit Mertajam. haha.. nice place in a big rushing city there was a quiet small village live a bunch of ppl where they children mostly are big school graduated students. hmm..... i wonder...... but it to admit that the place was quiet big and very nice place. the plantation was tidy n neat. they have a garden where it was nice simple n clean n nice. i like that place that have this things. i like environment maybe.
ha.. ya wat i do in my 1st day of my intern?
I was ther around 9:45 then i wait wait wait then chat chat with friend same intern place with me. then we start our intern at 10:15 with coach by Mei Yen until 11: 45 then we ask ask ask ask ask ask ask then after all settle we get together n have a photo shooting ... then wala..... finish work at 12: 15pm. hahaha... wat a day...
good thing is i enter the right place...haha

Friday, May 21, 2010


i have been i my house for like one week and i dint go out at all.... wahahahah.... but i did go for buy thing and make payment lo...then what am i doing in this one week? hahaha... i cook clean play play play then FYPFYPFYP final year project as we need to finish on time .
Wat a day.... nothing happen to me in this day ... haha...just a calm sea out there... no one is gossiping about me in my parent ear's. that is a good thing for me... but i will feel so bored as I CANT ONLINE in my house until today..... wala days..... hahaha.. but it fine with me cause i'm not too addicted to net but to facebook i'm addicted. without facebook i will feel i'm going slow with those who are playing in the facebook. i dint play game in the facebook but wat i do is chatting comment and lik hahahaha. that all for now.. i will continue de.. some day some place